Why am I discouraged? Why is my heart so sad? I will put my hope in God! I will praise him again— my Savior and my God!

Now I am deeply discouraged, but I will remember you— even from distant Mount Hermon, the source of the Jordan, from the land of Mount Mizar. I hear the tumult of the raging seas as your waves and surging tides sweep over me. But each day the Lord pours his unfailing love upon me, and through each night I sing his songs, praying to God who gives me life.

“O God my rock,” I cry, “Why have you forgotten me? Why must I wander around in grief, oppressed by my enemies?” Their taunts break my bones. They scoff, “Where is this God of yours?”

Why am I discouraged? Why is my heart so sad? I will put my hope in God! I will praise him again— my Savior and my God!Psalm 42:5-11 (NLT)

Feeling low, sinking, drowning… Feeling life put just one shovel of dirt after the next over my head. What is this? Why I’m I so low? Do I not know that He can save? Do I not remember the many times He has saved? He will! I know He will! But what is this? Why am I still unable to breathe!!! Why does every breath I take feel as though my enemy is sitting on my chest? I just want to sleep, sleep and awake from this heaviness. Why has He not lifted me up or filled me to the full of His strength. Do I have “little” faith? Have I sinned or mistreated another without knowing? Why so downcast o’ my soul… I just want to breathe again…to be filled anew with His Light…

But wait…what is that I feel!?! It is a whisper. A gentle breeze against my face. A warm glow that surrounds me through and through. Ohhhhh I drink it in…! It is His Spirit within! I feel it! It was always there. This “god”, my enemy, tried to make me believe it was lost, stolen. no THROW AWAY even! But he is a liar… he cannot steal what God has given, what God has planted within me.  The Spirit that has always been and always will be. It is His love for me and I for Him. It is His Ocean that I swim in. It’s the Ocean that fills my being. And like His fish I swim in Him and the oxygen in the waters is His Spirit I breathe. I swim the Oceans of Your waters as you surround me with all that is Yours. I will forever remain in You as You remain me. I am Yours and You are mine my precious and Almighty God.

Be Forever Blessed,



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